Friday, June 15, 2007

sorry getting really bad about writing


Yes haven't wrote in days again. Just haven't felt like writing much at all. Have started two stories and haven't finished either. I'd like to say just busy and stuff, but truly think not doing my blog is one of the ways I rebel when upset. Master knows I want an online Mistress, but he says no. Says I'd ignore him more then, and stay on computer longer. That's not true in the least. Having someone else in charge I'd be less likely to get in trouble, because I'd very likely get in trouble through both instead of just one. Don't know why we can't give it a trail run even, and I'll probably get in trouble for even writing about it here. Just don't care. I don't feel comfortable talking to Master face to face, because he gets angry easily and dismisses most of what I say without researching or truly thinking about the benefits to me. I'm really trying here, and just wish he would as well. OK that was very unfair I know he is trying, I'm a bit angry and haven't had an outlet for it. I should be able to fully talk about things, and yet still have problems doing so. OK I'm going to hush for I get in real trouble, and crawl back into my hole....

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

seriously? you need two people to tell you what to do? is Master not giving you enough attention? why do you want a Mistress? that is the core of it..why do you want to serve more than one person?

cyndi

Dark Angel said...

Cyndi Master is still new, we are learning and growing. Yes I feel that some one that has been in the lifestyle longer can help me learn and grow faster, and I can bring that into my relationship with my Master. As you have with your husband. As to a Mistress instead of another Male that is just my preferance at this time.