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Finaly got those whippings i've been being promised all week. Though Master did say he was mainly threatening whippings to keep me in line. Also got my pussy whipped good, which made me hot and wet. Would have loved to play a lot longer and harder, but had to take my daughter to mall. Had to admit was a little bummed this morning. Started thinking maybe Master is only in lifestyle to please me. That was really upsetting me. It's just not worth it if he's not in it for himself. There's so much still want to explore, learn, and try. He never talks about what he wants to try. We tried hot wax once and I screamed like a girl..well I am a girl. Would like to try agian, but haven't. Also bondage want to play a lot more with both bondage and shibari. It just seems once more play time and time for each other is being pushed aside just like it always is. Maybe my brattiness this week was trying to push the limits, and get a reaction out of him. Can't do self analys so don't know. My fave time is just sitting togather watching tv, especially the sex shows he saves just for me. We haven't even done that in a while. The weekend my parents were gone, and my daughter was as well was so great. Master kept me naked and waiting on him almost the whole weekend. He was always touching and tasting me. Now he's back to sending me to my computer, and telling me to leave him alone. Sigh.... Maybe if Master was under the tutoulage of an older more experianced Master we could learn and explore more. He's so Dominant though do not think that would fly. Ah well we are getting there. He's my Master for life and he's a great Master and husband and this girl is lucky to have him so have no real complaints. Just feeling whiney tonight. Do not even know why this girl would want more then what she already has. This girl is really a big baby and as Master says way to emotianal. Really thought Master liked shibari though and surprised he hasn't wanted to tie up my tits agian. Of course when he does this girl will probaly regret her whining, becouse then she'll be whining about something else. Well it's actually been a great saturday and we had a lot of fun at mall. Got some nice tight jeans at JC Penney's that were on sale. Hope Master likes them on this girls ass. Saw a movie, and walked around for a while. Talked to my friend Master Vigbrand for a while, before bed. He is a great guy and always like to talk to him for a while. Specially since his girl Mandi is out of town with her family right now and not home to serve him. Miss Mandi and our games of Dominoes, Literati, and pool. Am sure her Master misses her for there nightly games even more then I do..lol. Ok am out for the evening. Hope everyone else's day was as good is mine. Love you Master.
Well Master bought me an erotic book yesterday. Was reading it last night while he was watching a movie in bed. Needless to say he had to pause his movie for a while. Reading about someone else's ass being reddened as she was being spanked, really got my juices flowing. Didn't play rough or for very long since we had both been sick for last few weeks, but it was nice to finaly play agian. Master keeps threatening me with more whippings. Not even sure why think he just likes to threaten though have got a few already. Wrote Master a poem going to post it here for him see if he's still reading..lol. My niece found another baby sitter so didn't even have to watch my baby niece tonight. Actually the day was pretty good. We did have to pick up my other niece from school so my sister could get some more sleep before she had to go into work tonight. Only thing is my daughter gets out an hour before her so we had some time to kill. We went to the library for a while, then just read in front of the school to the bell rang. My daughter has made the Florida young scholars award agian this year. Am very proud of her, but would never tell her in so many words. Don't want her having a swelled head..lol. Made Master bacon and fried potatoes for brunch is a surprise only to be the one surprised..he wasn't hungry this morning. Ah well I enjoyed it. Have to run my daughter is bugging me about showing me some stupid vid on u tube. Have a great Wednesday.
Master is in a bad mood today. Daughter didn't help it, she was supposed to go to her cousins house, but never called them to come pick her up. Finaly took her over there, but Master really didn't want to go out today. He wasn't feeling well. This girl has cramps so not feeling to good herself. House is destroyed just from having family over for Easter. Have baby niece here now till her mother gets off work at ten. I'll be beyond exhausted by then. My great niece Jayna is a bit spoiled, and wants to be outside all day, but it's raining right now so can't go out and play. My cat smells like something crawled up him and died. Don't know what he ate that disagreed with him, but the gas he is releasing is horrondous. My other niece Ashley is actually home doing homework which she's really home at all. She's uber spoiled at 18. On her second new car, becouse the first one that her grandparents bought her the alignment was so off from her always hitting stuff, they traded it in for a new one. She's always nasty when she's home. Everything has to revolve around her or she has a melt down. All I want to do is go lay down, but can't becouse watching baby. Hopefully tomorrow will be a much brighter day.
Family sucks. Am so glad that we only have them all on holidays. After a few hours they drive you nuts. My Master tries to protect me, becouse he knows this girl never says no to family or friends. He told her they should escape for a few hours till everyone was gone, but no had to be stubborn like always. Have had my one year old great niece all day long, am now beyond exhausted. Last night was our monthly Munch. We had an auction, but it was mainly vanilla stuff. Master got us a whole box of china dishes for 6 dollars, and a leather vest for five. Then they had a voilet want demestration from Madam Tanesha. It was excellant. She also did some erotic knife play, and came out wearing a corsett with metal boobs. When she was doing electrical play she had electricity coming from the metal tips of the boobs into her demo person's back. It was spectacular. Didn't get home till midnight, and didn't get to sleep till almost two am. This morning was first person up, even before kids. Finished getting stuff ready for Easter and started cooking and all that fun stuff we do for other's. Didn't even do my husbands family yet, holding them off till tomorrow then will do something with them. Just don't have the energy to deal with mine and his both on the same day. Hope everyone has a wonderfull Easter as well.
Am feeling much better today..yea. Hopefully will feel good enough to play tonight. Miss touching Master so much. Thing is he's been in a lot of pain this week too, so not sure how it will work out. His stumps were shaking really bad this morning, and that causes hm a lot of muscle pain. He takes more pain meds when that happens and then it's just no good for playtime for us. Well one more day won't kill me. Least this girl hopes not. Still not breathing well myself, and not feeling to well myself so might be for the best. Did get some Easter shopping done for the teen, but felt like a worn out wet noodle by the time was done. Hope tomorrow might have something more interesting to write about, but for today this is it. adiós.
Master woke up with a raging hard on today. This is signifecant becouse of his disability it's not something that happens often. He called me in to deal with it. Had no problem with this, but just as we were getting good and into it our daughter starts banging on the door yelling about the phone. So get the phone and it's Master's sister telling him about wrestlemania on tonight. Big whoop we were kind of in the middle of something. We decide to continue were we left off some rough in your face, hands on kind of hard sex. Wouldn't you know we got distracted agian. Now Master is pissed and just tells me to forget it and go. Now the distractions aren't my fault, and I know he's upset and very dissapointed. Still his attitude makes me feel like a little girl caught with her hand in the cookie jar. Now he's depressed, i'm depressed none of which is good. I'm so happy Master is finaly getting the sex he wants, but this morning feel like the bottom is falling out of my world, as I left the room with Master looking pissed and depressed all at once. He's trying to train me to cum more often, and wants me to masterbate three times a day too. Yesterday he videotaped one of my sessions which made me even hotter. The problem is this girl when she cums cums very hard. It's almost painfull, and then it's very hard to do so agian till after a long rest. Why this is I know not. Wish it wasn't so. I feel like a failure to myself and him. Why can't I just look at him and be dying to have sex? Sometimes I am other times have to watch porn or read some to really get turned on. Also get tired and distracted easily. Some of that has to do with my low iron, and asthma. There are a lot of disabled peaple in the lifestyle that find ways to overcome there problems, but still it hurts that I can't serve as Master wants me to. The look he had in his eye's as I left the room agian this morning just killed me. If only he relized what his actions and expressions do to me. Plus I have two strokes of the whip hanging over me from yesterday. Would be easer if life didn't get in the way, becouse would much rather take the punishment right away then have it hanging over my head forever. Eventually if there not giving soon will probaly earn more it's like a never ending nightmare. This girl wants to please her Master, spend time with her parants, hang out with her kid, and still keep up with all her friends online. Something has to give there's just not enough hours in the day. Sorry for the mood today.
